Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a lengthy while, I don’t feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I would be this for the wrong reason; as an easy way in order to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to generally share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside. a course in miracles Don’t want it troubling your brain, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I’d said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I’d in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents’reassurance, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief has been (has been?) released.
There are other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.